oh.

oh i forgot to say this but my hair now has a fucsia/red/pink stripe in it.

its all over now.

so i finally graduated.

i'm off to high school.

and i'm suprisingly really scared.

but everyone kinda is.

hahahaha

just got the sem dress code and i was all "wtf?"

i have to buy a whole new wardrobe.

completely new.

=/

i dont know if its awesome or sucky yet.

I'm gonna start dressing like this awesome chicka.

i need money, some sweet fabric and belts.

oh and shoes.

and tights.

today.

i went shopping with ruby
and i found my graduation dress.
its amazing.
and i got some white wayfers
they're flyyy.
i'll post photos later.

let the beat control you.

There are two bands that everytime I here them I start to cry.
I cry in a good way not in the bad way. Its because when i hear the they fil me with emotions of the past and its just overwellming.
The bands are Tilly and The Wall. and Zolof The Rock and Roll Destroyer.
Your probally laughing at me right now. i mean there not the type of band you start to cry over, expecially ZTRRD.
But in those past two years i've dealt with a lot of shit. Stuff i don't like to mention and those bands have always been there for me.
The lyrics have kept me from going crazy and hurting myself.
They've helpt me realize that everything is gonna get better and that the bullshit that's happening right now won't matter in the future.
It's funny because it seems that those two bands have a song or a line in a song that have helpt me with all my issues.
They've givin me hope and happiness and they always make me smile.
Thats why when people talk shit about them i get soooo fucking defencive. Because its like there crushing me and I just can't take it.

So I guess this is a thank you letter.
Thank you.
Thank you so fucking much.


oh my god. i started to cry again.

since i was gone

I'm having the best time of my life. and i'm not really doing anything. I've got great friends & money in my pockets. My report card came a couple days ago and i went up in everything =] I got cold stone yesterday. it was my first time ever going there. it was sooo yummy<33 I think i'm slowly turning into a scene kid. but i really don't care. my life is amazing right now. and nothing is going to change that. =]

LOL Mingus! I like ate pie today!

This Video is from last year.
hahahaha
can you hear over the loud music and heavy breathing.
I was so fat back then.
lol
um, totes

Inspiration

versace never stops selling sex

children love screamo bands from utah

make up, lights, cigarettes




best face front




dita is stunning


pretty people in pretty clothes

they're flippin' sweet

fafi explans me

trapped in a box

love sucks

I can't stand girls, they're so bitchy and manipulative.
I can't stand boys ether, they're really selfish, rude and cruel.
But they're both so cute.
hahahahaha

I'm stuck in a rut.

Valentine's day sucked...i made a mix cd so i could bask in my misery.
here's the track listing:


1. The Con-Tegan and Sara
2. Mother Sea-Bat For Lashes
3. Simple Kind Of Life- No Doubt
4. Fallen Snow (The Teenagers Remix)- The Teenagers
5. Blue Light- Bloc Party
6. My Moon My Man- Feist
7. Sunrise, Sunset - Bright Eyes
8. Turn Into-Yeah Yeah Yeahs
9. Light With A Sharpened Edge-The Used
10. The Clap-The Unicorns
11. Your Lips Are Red-St. Vincent
12. Ego-The Sounds
13. Oh My God-Kaiser Chiefs
14. Classifieds-The Academy Is...
15. This Modern Love-Bloc Party
16. (Hidden Track)- The Sounds
17. No Surprises-Radiohead
18. To The Lighthouse-Patrick Wolf
19. No More Long Years-Matt and Kim
20. On Top-The Killers
21. One Minute To Midnight-Justice
22.Vivica- Jack Off Jill
23. Miss World-Hole
24. Call The Shots -Girls Aloud
25. Silver Lining-Rilo Kiley
26. Dear Diary, My Teen Angst Has A Body Count - From First To Last
27. Slow Down-The Academy Is...



27 songs, all different types. British songstress, emo kids whining, cheesy pop ballads about breaking up are all included.
they all make me sad.
hahaha
i'm a loser.

i'd wear this every day

my new hair

um, its a ok photo.
but whatever

Ballroom

- I've got into Sem! i couldn't belive it, when my mom was reading the acceptance letter to me i was trying to text everyone the good news, so all the pictures of me have my head down. it kinda sucks.

-I went to my first grown up after party. hahaha. it was the party after the slam semi-finals. Cleavland won. it was really fun hanging with a bunch of drunk 30 somethings. I just ate pizza and played Wii.

-I dyed my hair. It was going to be turquiose, but when i bleached it i liked the color so much i just let it be. Now its a golden- orange blond color. i love it.

-I've ran out of room on my ipod. i found out yesterday when i was trying to put Hot Kiss by Juliette And The Licks on, and it said "ipod doesnt have enough space" or something like that. i got really mad, and started deleting like every song i havent listen to in the past month. then i got really sad, because i was delelting all these songs i loved that i just forgot to listen to.

-I've figured out the plot to that story i was writing. basically these kids form a band and they get really popular really fast. the lead singer get pushed more more into the spotlight leaving her band mates off in the shaddows. and then they break up. all before age 27.

-On the fifth i went to this pizza party at sem so i could meet all of my new classmates. I don't fit in at all. i'm really scared about it too. Like all the girls are from amhearst and grand island, they wear uggs and abechrombie, they listen to TOP 40! i'm not gonna survive! and there all so skinny! they make me feel huge and short. some of the girls were really tall and others wear like my height. i can't stand being short. since i'm around all these teengae boys i feel shorter than normal. why do they have to be so tall. greta is 5'9 and gigi is 5'11. i'm 5'5 and 3 quarters. I feel soooo short! i cant take this anymore.

-I hate Valentines Day. I can't stand it. I HATE IT!!!! I never have a valentine, no one wants to be my valentine and anyone i ask says no it a cruel and cold way. but this year i don't even have a crush on anyone. but i still hate all this bullshit lovey dovey crap. like wtf why is this even a holiday. ugh! i hope all my classmates get preginant and get aids. buglhertjrfkg!

-ok, maybe not AIDS but they can still get preginant. i don't really care for them much. lol

So yesterday night was the poetry slam regonals.

my mum was hosting.

it was awe-some.

there were four teams; buffalo, toronto, daton, and cleveland.

the toronto team was almost all girls, they only had one dude

&&cleaveland's team was all black.

Buffalo came in second place. Cleveland was first.

So After the slam, there was a party at gabrelle's house.

fun fun fun.

lol

i texted G when i was there and i was like:

"yo. somehow i found myself at a party with a bunch of almost drunk 30-somethings."

she just said "lmao"

you tube is eating my soul.

but i love it!

Peace Out 2007!

oh my god!
this is the last day of 07!
we'll be back in the even numbers now.
i love even numbers.

NEW FUCKING RESOLUTIONS!
OK so i will no longer talk about people that i know in real life by there first name.
I will use there first initial, gossip girl style(the book not the show).
I will talk about music as much as i can, posting links and video too.
I will go to show! damn i missed metric this year and i was really sad :(
I will NOT write pointless long posts about crushes or how much my life sucks
I will have fun and par-tay!!!
lolz


um, i saw Juno with C a couple days ago. it was great, Jezebel was right, well there always right. mostly.
but the movie was starting to get to my head, because last night i had a super weird dream.
so i was pregnant and lily Cole was the father. and in the dream F pointed out the obvious that Lily Cole is a chick and not a dude therefor she couldn't be the father. so we went on this crazy journey to find the father and it turned out to be Jeph from the used.
Creepy!
lol

according to Last FM the 20 artists I've listed to in 2007 are:
1. M.I.A
2. Metric
3. The Knife
4. The Cast of 'Rent'
5. Princess Superstar
6. My Chemical Romance
7. Mindless Self Indulgence
8. The Bird and The Bee
9. Death From Above 1979
10. Arctic Monkeys
11. The Go! Team
12. The Pipettes
13. Rilo Kiley
14. Gravy Train!!!!
15. Datarock
16.The Used
17. Horrorpops
18.Bloc Party
19. Daft Punk
20. MSTRKRFT


My 30 Favorite bands of 2007(in no order)
1. MSTRKRFT
2. Death From Above 1979
3. Gravy Train!!!!
4. Yelle
5. Girls Aloud
6. Sugababes
7. Patrick Wolf
8. Yeah Yeah Yeahs
9. Justice
10. Arctic Monkeys
11. Bloc Party
12. Namalee
13. The Bird and The Bee
14. Matt and Kim
15. Crystal Castels
16. M.I.A
17. Anne
18. We Smoke Fags
19. CSS
20. Uffie
21. MissOddKidd
22. St. Vincent
23. The Blood Brothers
24. Neon Blonde
25. The Horrors
26. Hadouken!
27.Trash Fashion
28. Does it Offend you, Yeah?
29. Simian Mobile Disco
30. Tegan and Sara

ok thats it. next post in 2008!
love you all,
MingusFOOL
ps.PARTAY!!!!
pps.wanna hang? comment me, i'll text u!
ppps. That above thing is a joke. don't really expect me to text you
pppps. unless your F, then i'd text u
ppppps. or G, G is straight up gansta i'd text her

I GOT A PHONE!!!!!!!!11

this phone:
and its so amazing.
i get texting,internet and a camera,
the only bad thing is that virgin mobile's rates kinda suck
but its super super awesome!!!!!
and we got DDR supernova2
that game is sooo addicting.

voice post

http://www.esnips.com/doc/0c44a5c8-2140-458a-b19f-05acc98e6666/I-Wear-Sunnies

wishlist

yoo

life is so weird sometimes.


i just don't get it.

this christmas is going to be so weird.

like we dont even have a tree.

and i'm not gonna get what i want

I dont really want anything.

i'll post a wishlist after this.

a cellphone, a tote bag, jeans, dresses, skirts, shirts, shoes.

and possibly a laptop(macbook)

but really just clothes and a cellphone(that i need)

but whatever.

goodbye paradise

the last few days i've been feeling like crap. so i decided to write a story. its kinda shity and not done yet. but i found my old notebook from last year(last summer) and i'm writing in there.

the last few days, i've been wishing for summer. not this summer but a summer far away. when i'm 19 and i live on a farm with all my friends. we make music and eat tofu and drink soy milk. all the girls wear pretty dresses and flowers in their hair. all the boys wear overalls and linen pants and white cotton shirts.

the last few days i've been hating buffalo. the people, the weather, the cars, the houses, the dogs, the music, the shops. i want to leave it behind. forget about it. and move back to new york.

the last few days i've been sad. oh so sad and oh so scared. scared of the future and of the past. i just wanna go somewhere and cry. i cry everywhere lately. at home, in school, on the bus, on the train, at squeaky wheel. i'm a fucking wreck.

i wanna work in fashion, so i can control people. and make them feel ugly and fat.

4eva&eva&eva&eva&eva&...

hola!
wazzzzz uppp????!!!!

my computer got fixed!!!!!
it had a virus and was acting really stupid & slow
so i have to make a short(3 min) silent film about my self.
i have no idea what to do.
the camera isn't focausing and i'm just wasting time.
UGGH
i have to give the camera back saturday. its wensday.
yuck!
still havent heard from cypress & frankly i'm not caring.
^ lol isnt that a first
i'm having the best time of my life, by just being me.

My parents are leaving for miami tonight.
they are going for the art fair/show/thingy.
they are going to be gone for like 2 weeks
so i'm stuck with the kids & my grandmom for two weeks.
in which i will successfuly go crazy & have a anxiny attach all in probly three days.
UGHJAKHGKNDHBGIP!!##YHN*&$#^%K

biology is eating my soul, so is myspace & my ipod.

i've read war of the worlds again. and also all these vampire books.
i'm gonna start doing voice posts.
if i'm not too lazy
lol
-mingusFOOL